Thursday.
SKIPPED the whole gym session today. As
i totally overslept, wake at 9.30. and
prepare abit and str8 dashes down sch
for my 11 am tut. Reached class at 11.14
woot super lucky just 1 more min to late.
Got back my Pins termtest paper.
63/100 not that gd, not that bad.

Had my lunch and lect. before going
to orgcomm. where i think mr rafiz today
was in a very gd mood today. was joking
with us often. haha i like when he is
like that. cos normally he is very guai
lan 1 lolZz.

back to E2 had some push up game again.
this time even more pple playing. and
damn i broke the circle, 40 push up for
me!! seriously my hand was weak since gym
on tues and yesterday push up game.
today still do super slag-ed lolZz

before going off. FULL STRENGTH!!!

after that, its our E2 dinner. but this
time round SME joined us. so is a SME3
dinner. was initially going sengpang bedok
but its raining cum its going to be pack.
so we decided to go AIRPORT instead.

the trip there was noisy, we are like
kids going for field trip. lolZz
damn high, we reached airport and went off
to dabao your own food and meet back together
to eat. at T3 B1 empty space. how cool it can
be. 17 of us. sitting Under the clock at B1 of
T3 in a circle. lolZz

high-ed.

my dinner. not that nice. tm/ps
indo bbq is still the BEST.

cass me and elvina. we 3 have small eyes!!

after that, me and cass went up to buy the cake
for din's birthday celebration. hope din had
a surprise that we celebrate his birthday with him
haha after that is animal game, 17 of us siol
i hardly can remember half of it lolZz

BIRTHDAY BOY, DIN. hope u had fun!!

then at 10 we all leave airport and took our
bus back home. i seriously enjoyed my day.
dinner with every1 is just so enjoyable.

reached home and had a chat with Elvina
on the phone on her project stuff. Elvina
some time life is a bitch dun u agree?
THIS IS LIFE. bare with it and strive hard
prove u are capable of doing it! u had
my support!!
thats all for thursday.


k this section, is for my tot. here goes.
Why, when some 1 did something wrong, mean
he/she is forever wrong? is just like, y when
it involve the other team, it always has to be
her/his fault? this mind set. is terribly wrong.

its not always the 1 u tot it is. it all back to
the same point. we always pointing finger on 1
who we tot it might be. but we always nv really
find out, weather izzit really him/her that
do that. finger always point out first, then
investigate. dun u think that abit not fair
to the innocent party. innocent party will be
shock and lost for words as its not him/her do it.
but every ASSUME its him/her. that what i call
unfairness treatment. we are not giving a
chance yet we assume its him/her that do it.
maybe we all should reflect on this issue.

next, there is pple that think they are strong
not as in physically. they are used to this
used to that. and YES i am saying u. saying
i always the bad guy i used to it already.
but u know when i heard this. first came to my
mind was to hug u tight, and say, hey theres no need
to act strong in front of me. every 1 has their
limits. i rather u cry at times while sharing
than saying i am used to it already. i from
young this and that. i know u are "train-ed"
in a way. but its not always strong the best
way to finish it.
BUT ofcos i not saying u should always break
down and just be weak. u see. okok i know i
am contradicting myself. but i hope u get
my point.

ohya. and the sentence i am happy was. i say
i have no determine to do it. and u say now
u know me so u have to do it. lolZz i just
feel happy when i see it lolZz.

dAn *food can anyhow eat. but words cannot anyhow type.

Self reflection
Been thinking ever since, i heard it.
"i felt DARK and unknown" this words
really crave in my heart. we all maybe
new in this team. but i guess we all
starting to get a hang of every1's
true colours and pros and cons.

what u say, is really true. every 1
was celebrating his leave, and was happy
some 1 else came in the team. i seriously
was happy that u make it in to the team.
but did we ever spare a tot on the 1 that
leave us? did he really deserve what we
celebrating now? did we really ask his
unhappiness? did we treat him as a fair
individual? he may did not do much for his
part. but that doesn't mean we could treat
him in a unfairness way. think abt it.
if u are reading this and happen to think
if u are part of it. THINK abt it. did u
treat him like u treat others?

As the person telling me abt this. her eye
was full of tear. and its not that she did
something wrong? she did her part. but did
we? with this it link to many other doors
some open and some shut tight. that y she
feel its dark. cos not many door are open.
(like i say if u know what i mean gd, if u
dun. better if u dun. but i believe u should
know, correct me if i miss understand your
meaning)

team? define it. its we work together cover
each others cons and grow together. its not
here 1 small group there 1 small group. some
wander in de air. some did not appear. i maybe
part of all of that,that y i dun feel that dark.
but after what u say. i try putting me in your shoe.
i can feel the same as u did. we here really
feel cold. (and its not abt the temperature.)

knowing all this, i can't blame others. i could
just blame myself, y didn't i do something
before u feel that? (i been stuck here thinking
of what to continue for 30mins-_-) or maybe its
just a small matter where i think to much?
i was nv once a thinker. but today your this
sharing really make me think for afew moment.
i stop walking and stand to see what is happen
around me.

some pple just have their attitude, and their
way of toking, which might not be pleasant to
every1. but pls do think. u are in a team. u
are a team player. u cannot do thing what u like.
and think u are always right. thought some time
u are right. perhaps just put yourself in
others shoe. and think if the person listen
to what u just say. how will he/she feel?
pissed? angry? tsk tsk? but definitely not happy.

been verging my tot on blog. which its not my
normal self. i think i been thinking to much.
maybe everything is just fine. i hope!!
k i am tired, and should get some slp now.

dAn *at times we should stop and look around whats happening in your surrounding.

WED
k i finally blogged to today liao.
had been updated past event. i am to tired
to remember what happen last time. kk
lets say abt today. didn't have school.
today. but came school for swimming session
at 4 with jeannie and elvina. So, i reach
school early at 12.30 to slack and chitchat
abit.

lunch-ed with jeannie harith and cass at E2
after elvina came. and we all chat chat abit.
but soon after something happen. oh well
if u know GD. if u dun. dun know better.
after that elvina went for project jeannie
went for cds. me and harith went to refill
the empty bottle and soon he left for his mp.
left me alone in the room. so i clean up
the mess abit sweep sweep here sweep sweep there.

after that, i had a HTHT chat with elvina
which make me feel so sry. the things that
she say, make me think, y can't i do a better job
in the first place. then she will not think
that way. i had lots of thoughts after it.
soon jeannie came back from cds. and we talk
things out. HTHT again. heard alot and thoughts
alot too. i am the only 1 that had the most
contact time, if i not wrong. but if only i do
something more. i could just stop this from
happening. maybe its my fault for not doing it.

after that me jeannie and elvina went to sch
pool for swimming session. DAMN both of them
are like MERMAID. they swam so fast-_- i feel
like a slowpoke for that 2hrs. when i swimming
i been thinking what elvina say again. Did we
ever thought the reason of it, before we point
our finger at some1? Fairness? been swimming
4 laps only before we start our HTHT again.

after that we left the pool at 6. bathe and went
back to E2. where jeannie leave us first. elvina
took her stuff and went to find jerome them.
(i swear i will not say sme is warmer than E2 again)
can see from her face, she not that happy of it.
if its me, i think i will not like it too.

back at E2 played some push up games. where both my
hand now are so weak now. i wonder how i gym tml.
after all the fun we pack up and go. and at this
moment something really bad happen. i accidentally
broke my laptop screen, i was so careless that i did
not saw my power plug is still on the keyboard. and i
force close my screen down, and i hear the crack sound.
ITS OVER!!!! STEAM!!!!! i on it again it become this

its may look nice. but ITS FREAKING CRACKED!!!

was very emo until, i tok
wendy where she str8 shoot me. so what, u
going to emo of this little things. this is
where i stop emo and start thinking of solution
than crying over a spill milk. but i guess
it will cost me a bomb to repair it. no choice.
who call me so careless. THIS IS LIFE.

Had been exercising every day this week. but
i still lack of determination. if u know what
i mean. is like slimming down. u must have a
something like motor to keep u determine to
carry on the exercise. i also dunno how to put
my thoughts of this in words. oh well, hopefully
i been determine by something or some1 soon.
if not i sense the slimming plan is just a plan
where no 1 is going to do it.

thats all for today.

dAn *seriously i was happy when i saw the sentence.

Tues.
went school early at 9 for gym session with
hung and qg them. as usual i was late again.
-_- i wonder when can i be early. do some
weight lifting and we are done. had a short
run after gym. but i was dead after 4 round.
i wonder how did i even manage to finish 14
round in the past -_-

i think i am lack of determination. i feel it
i am not giving my all to slim down. oh well.
nvm that. after that had my FASC lesson. got
back my paper. and i SCORE only 55/100 -_-
WTF. that is freaking lousy. damn disappointed.
i should work hard for the rest of the term.
(which i still not doing it).

after that waited, jeannie zul to finish their
meeting with andre. we went to tm for dinner
session. me harith jeannie zul and zaini.
had long john silver. After that we do something
even more HIGH. we went ntuc brought a 1.5liter
of ice cream. and "steal" spoon from mac. and
when near century square, infront of the UOB.
eating ice-cream. every 1 was like digging in
and have their share. haha its really feel gd
when we did something like this. woot.

after that place action game at there, in
public. that even more funnier with words
like "i Cum" "mother-cuffer" lolZz enjoy
my times with E2 peeps. after that is
home sweet home.!!
(DAMN blogger really can't upload pic-_-)
this is bad. i hate words blogging.
but no choice THIS IS LIFE.

dAn *let make our last year, a most happening 1.

16th to 21th June
A quick update on what happen. After our
subcomm camp. every 1 is tired and all deserve
their 4 days holiday. but me Harith and Qahhar
came back to clean up some unclear stuff. went
back at Thursday, was late so most of it was
harith and qahhar doing the cleaning. i helped
part of it too.

then for friday i remembered i went sch. but
forget y i was in sch. after that i go mz hus
for mj session. i think i didn't win nor lose.
break even. lolZz and i think i lost my temper
abit. its may seem normal to pple. as in pple
will tot i just normally toking. but deep down
i know i did something bad. i feel bad lolZz.
to verge tiny bit of angryness out.

after that for sunday shopping!!! didn't plan
for it.its was all suddenly event. at 11 i wake
and saw weihung and junhao online. then i say
let go buy things i need buy my short. then both
say ok meet now. lolZz so we met at tamp. and
start our mini shopping. wah seem quite alot.
(i dunno what happen to blogger, i can't input
pic -_-)
well i brought
-2 FPT bball short
-1 bums
-my havanias LOVES
-wax
-organiser
that roughly all. spent 110 if i not wrong.
i feel poor now. going to be eating grass
and drinking water cooler when school reopen
liao. this is LIFE.

As for Monday first day of
sch reopen. when to class at tut period again
missed BOTH my lect. oh well first day
ar. can't crawl out of bed lolZz.
get back my radio result, quite ok a B+
after that had a swim with weihung and
jeannie. and some Heart To Heart Talk.
i love it. seriously. sharing your tot
while other sharing theirs.

haha i think i should start blogging. since
now maple is out of my life. i should have the
time to blog every single day. its all to blog
what happen this week. i forget what i do after
swimming. lolZz thats for monday!

dAn *the ideal slping time is before 11. can u do it?

14th to 16th June
*sry word post only. all pic i need to wait
for pple to update.!!!!
SCC was a BLAST. though the number of of participants
was not that much but still we had quite a handy
of pple came. i am glad.

seriously we are blessed. everyday in the morning
there will be rain. but when we are going to start
our event, its rain stop and sun came out.
super glad the weather is fine for first 2 days.
every thing ran smoothly. and its SUPER tiring.
i think almost all main comm, was like walking
zombies at the time.

pple can slp while watching video. pple can slp
while eating. and even standing at the door. also
can slp. see how tired we are. we had lots of
feedbacks. mostly positive 1. which make me as a
programmer head so damnn happy.!! i believe my
program team and all main comm is super happy
with the feedback that participants gave.

Day1, was a blast to every 1 as we really break
the ice. for ice breaking session. and the team
building games. was fun and something new. by
participant faces. i feel they really enjoy it.
night walk was a thumbs up too. though its not
that scary, but i believe some had been mentally
freaked.

Day2, i think every1 enjoyed Amazing race. out of
the school. traveling around to do task, though its
a mini 1, i think they had fun going places to places.
the "How one Night" was the best, i ever had. seeing
team performing far better that what we expected.
and not forgetting our disco night/clubbing night
i dun really enjoy clubbing but i hope they enjoy it.

Day3, video viewing and reflection on every1 on this
camp. its a very short day. had our debrief, and they
all say the camp is awesome, this make all our hard
work pay offs. and we send the participant back home.
thats the moment i really sad abt. its like 3 days
just passes like that. i can't believe times passes
that quick. i have the sha bu de feeling. awwwww!!!

after that we had our main comm debrief which last for
near 5 hrs. where we all voice out and tok to
each other. i seriously enjoy this session. where
every 1 dun hid think and just share it out. the pro
and con of every 1. from it we learn and grow. NICE!!!

kk thats all for E2 Subcomm camp.
nitey for now. super tired.


dAn *happiness, its not something u can give yourself. its others that gave u. Thankyou every 1.

Its long since i last blog. was very busy
with my club stuff. let me just update on
from 6th to 13th of june its just
a week before our camp. during this week
lots of fun thing happen. it really make me
feel joining this club is a right choice for me
i seriously enjoy it.

we had been finalizing the games. and tried out
ourselves woot sure is fun. even we think out the
game also cannot really play the game very well,
i wonder will our participants can make it lolZz.
Chapteh and skipping rope was 1 of the memories
that i will remember. where we all keep cannot do it.
lolZz lots of laughter. i mean TONS of it. lolZz

after that we had days we went out to recce the places.
THOSE are the even more enjoyable session. had fun
playing slide at T3 woots. and went to recce all tamp
pasir ris and changyi village. TONs of laughter came
from there. THE NA KO NEH. its going to be a joke
on andre and elvina for the whole AY i think lolZz.

not only that, we walk round and round for the night
walk to make it more and more perfect. walked both in
afternoon and night. things happen. but not every 1
knew, i also nv feel it. well can say we all dun quite
believe on it lolZz.

the familiar phrase, we here always say.
u think its simple?
Its not that simple!!!
if u think its hard?
Its is that hard

video cam-ing session is even more fun, every1's
joy, joke, happy, sian, sad. faces all in and
not forgetting NA KO NEH. =) we been prepare from
6th all the way to 12th. we get all the game comfirm
and played by us. all the logistic done by harith and
qahhar.

at 13th of june, just 1 day before the camp.
zaini elvina andre cass zul siti. all went to
my place to stay over. for some last min briefing
making sure every 1 know what they suppose to do.
and on the same time togetherness.

AND finally all the preparation and things we do.
its finally that day we all waiting for 14th june
our own E2 Sub comm camp. to be serious i am
excited, as there are friend came to support us.
and we seriously dun wan to disappoint them lolzZ
and WE shall not disappoint the, the camp
going to be a happening 1.

i shall stop here next post then say abt the
3 days in camp.

dAn *1, 2, E2Matrix~~~!!!!!!!!!